Step Back

Hello beautiful souls,

I pray you’re having a terrific week so far!! Mine has been super busy but nonetheless, a productive week thus far. Have you ever found yourself complaining or whining without realizing you’re complaining or whining? Like have you ever found yourself just tripping? Please tell me I’m not the only one. Lol I had a “foot in my mouth” moment last week and found myself doing just that, tripping!!

I find we sometimes focus on what’s not being done vs what is being done in some cases, unintentionally that is. In my recent case, I found myself disappointed because someone special wasn’t doing this or doing that while completely and unintentionally (keyword, unintentionally) overlooking what they WERE doing. While I’m complaining, I hadn’t realized how much I hurt their feelings until I was told. I made someone very important to me feel like what they were doing wasn’t good enough when it was in fact more than enough.

I can even remember times my daughter complain about not getting something her way when 80 out 85 times just that day she did get her way plus some and I would have to remind her of what I had done for  vs what she was complaining about that I hadn’t done. It’s so easy to complain when not paid attention to. I pointed out “unintentionally” because it’s important we practice being intentional. (Intentional was my word for this year that I may make my word for next year too honestly since I have definitely been slipping with applying  being intentional.)

God’s intentional with us, isn’t He? Let me go even further and say I slip up and magnify what I feel God hasn’t done on my time or in the order I want this or that when HE’S GOD and does WAY MORE THAN  ENOUGH for me that I definitely don’t deserve. Sweet soul, have you ever been just in a ugh type of mood because life isn’t the way you pictured or because your car isn’t the car you wanted or because you didn’t have enough money to go to that 5 star restaurant you had a taste for when you had a taste for it? 

What about those times when you felt you didn’t have enough money in your pocket, or just wanted more than what you had when in reality you had EXACTLY what you needed for that current day!?! I admit y’all, sadly,  I’m guilty!! Who am I to utter a complaint about anything no matter how bad life looks? I’m breathing, able to eat at least 3 meals a day whether it’s what I want or not doesn’t matter. I have my five sense, able to , talk, walk, jump, run, comprehend and  when there are many who can’t do . What does matter is that daily, GOD provide exactly what we need when we need it and we need to stay mindful of just that not only with  Heavenly Father but with our loved ones also.

Next time you find yourself about to complain about something, step back and reflect on what has and is being done in that moment. Reflect on all you have to be thankful for in that moment. You know the saying, “It’s never as bad as it looks.” and “someone always has a worst hand than yours.”, is so true. I challenge you to look at the good in every situation more. I’m learning to zoom in on the effort of a loved one and making sure they know how grateful I am for what they do that they don’t really HAVE to do.

I’m sure God smiles every time He hears us say, “Thank you Lord for this day” or “Thank you Lord for this or that blessing”. I know it makes my heart smile when my daughter tells me thank you or she’s happy I’ve done this or that for her. I challenge you to take the time to thank a loved one whether it be verbally or with  small gesture like a letter or their favorite candy bar (NO TEXT or fb msg or email). Man, I’m telling you, it’s the small things that count and really matter most. I guarantee you that you’ll make their day!!! Stay blessed beautiful souls!! I love you and until next time….

💕 R.Q Janae💕

 

Ready for Fall

Hello beautiful souls! My, how I’ve missed blogging this summer due to life! How has your summer been going? (I can’t say “was” since technically summer isn’t quite over just yet.) What adventures did you go on or what lessons were learned in the summer-16? What would you say has been or will be the highlight of this summer season? Please share, I look forward to hearing from you!

My summer on the other hand was/is bittersweet. My summer season was COMPLETELY different than the way I had imagined it to be. It was a lot a heart ache, pain and definitely CHALLENGES & CHANGES that took place. Which is why I’m so READY FOR FALL! New season and a new chapter is about to bloom! (Fall is my FAVORITE season AND September is my Birthday month so I’m really excited!!!!) Although summer-16 is coming to an end, I’ve learned so much. I’ve learned more about myself than anything and I still have more room to grow and be better. I’ve lost a lot but what I’ve gained is full of so much substance that the things/people,etc that I lost is starting to feel all worth losing.

Without going to far I depth, I lost a marriage, a home, people I thought were in my corner, had to leave jobs and more. I lost my peace and joy at one point this season. At another point I thought I was losing my mind the way my life was turned upside down. I had to swallow a lot of pride this season. I don’t know about anyone else but I absolutely hate asking for help even when I need it most. Those that know me know that to be true firsthand. Not that I think I know it all or that I simply think that I can do it all on my own. I promise it isn’t from that “I’m to good to ask for help”place.

It’s more from a place of not wanting to feel like a burden or be in someone way or having  debt over my head sooo I’ll exhaust all ways of trying to help myself before asking for help for any given situation. Example, math; (My favorite subject by the way.) I would try to solve problems myself no matter how hard they are before I ask for any amount of help. I’m the same way with life unfortunately and fortunately in some cases. This season I’ve needed and got a lot of help from some beautiful souls and words could never explain how forever grateful I am and will forever be.

You would think that I would hate or think the worst of Marcus since, if I can be real, my life and my daughter life changed due to a decision he made. Honestly, I wish no ill will towards him but all God has for him. I’m thankful for all I’ve learned because of him. I realized my worth, what me and my baby girl deserve and I’ve learned what it takes and don’t take to make my next  marriage work if that’s God’s will for me and so much more.

I’ve grown in ways that surprise even myself this summer and I’m looking forward to the growth that will continue in this next season. I’m employed with 2 great jobs and I start school for business management next month. Though I lost some relationships, I gained a few that are very dear to me. I’m starting to loc journey officially next month. Although it’s been a rough one, with the grace and help from God, I know things can only go up and get from here. I look forward to sharing with you my experiences and lessons very soon.  I pray you all have a fabulous weekend!! Talk soon.

💕R.Q Janae💕

 

5/15/2011

Hey beautiful souls!!

What a beautiful day it is in Michigan today!! I’m thankful I was able to catch some of the good weather. Pray you all had a great weekend and Monday!! So I wanted to share one of my testimonies today. Lord knows, I have many of them (testimonies that is) but yesterday marked 5 years of the testimony I’m sharing today.

December 2010 I left a very unhealthy relationship and met a wonderful guy named Philemon Onyango sometime in January of 2011 from Kenya. We met at my cousin place and really hit it off great! Let me give this disclaimer. Back then I knew Jesus, correction, I’ve known Jesus all my life. My dad and mom raised me in church and taught me when I was very young about the importance of a relationship with Christ. Let me just say I haven’t been saved all my life and this season in my life I definitely was not living a set apart lifestyle.

This season in my life, I was drinking every weekend, partying every weekend and having what I thought was “fun”. Monday through Friday was work and Friday evening to Sunday evening was party and turn up. This particular night, May 14,2011, my boyfriend Phil worked a long shift. He worked a 5am to 5pm this day and we planned on going to a Liberty University graduation house party that night. Vic had just graduated and a couple other mutual friends. We stopped at my mom place to ask her if Don’nae could stay the night with her.

When I tell you that she said no over and over and over. She said no over and over again. I asked her well over 10 times praying she would say yes so that we could go to the party. She eventually did say  yes and we hurried out before she changed her mind and said no again. Needless to say we made it to the party late. Well to late for Phil and Vic to eat some food but not to late for drinking.

I had eaten before I left party but had to go pick Phil up from work and by the time we returned, the food was gone off course. Who doesn’t love good African food? (I miss African food) Early in the morning (now May 15,2011) I had been asleep in the backseat while Phil and Vic went inside Kroger to get something to eat. They both had been drinking but both of them didn’t have a chance to eat anything before drinking at party.

I remember sitting up for a second when they got back into the car. (The closing of the door woke me up.) They had bags of food. I also remember going straight to our bedroom (me and Phil’s bedroom) and going straight to sleep. The very next thing after that I woke up to pitch black smoke. Just sharing this takes me back to how I felt in those very moments where I couldn’t move left, right, up or down. It felt like a thick rope was tightly wrapped around my neck. It was smoke everywhere. I couldn’t breathe. I struggled opening the window that was above our bed because we never opened it. (You know how shut tight windows are when they haven’t been opened season after season? That’s how that window was.)

That window was not opening for me. My eyes were on fire and I was terrified thinking that was my last day on earth. I know it was nobody but the touch of God on that window when it did manage to lift for me. I hurried out the window with no shoes and ran to the back of our place only to discover the whole kitchen was on fire. Phil and Vic were still in there. I screamed and screamed for both of them. I couldn’t open the side doors or any of the windows. Lord knows, I tried. I had nothing to even break the windows.

The family who lived on top of us and a neighbor to our left heard me and called 911. I remember the neighbor to the left holding me as I screamed and cried. I remember the flames being vicious and even burning the whole left side of Phil’s blue neon that was parked near kitchen. The flames even cracked his neon windshield. I remember feeling like it took forever for the fire fighters, ambulance, and police to get there. I remember seeing so many fire fighter, ambulance and police lights up the whole street when they did arrive.

I remember feeling like my heart was ripped out when they were carrying Phil and Vic body out of our place. I remember pinching myself saying this is not real and hoping it was all just a dream. I remember my dad and mom showing up and trying to get me to go to the hospital to get checked out but I refused. I remember stopping at Phil’s best friend house, Crown, to tell him about the tragedy that had taken place. Phil and Vic were to impaired with alcohol that night. They had fell asleep cooking something.

I remember the taste of the smoke in my mouth and throat for weeks after that fire. I remember walking around trying to figure out why they died and I lived. I remember wanting to die. Me and Don’nae had lost everything again. Don’nae had just had a birthday that March 5th and all of her gifts were demolished in the fire. I remember losing everything. I even remember being told a lot of Phil and Vic friends blamed me for their deaths. I remember carrying that guilt. Thinking because they thought it and I couldn’t save them then it must’ve been true.

I will never forget this day. It definitely was a wake up call for me to say the least. Have I crossed every T and dotted every i since then? No. But I am certain death has no age or time on it and the enemy is out to kill, steal and destroy. If Don’nae had been in there, I know I wouldn’t have even made the attempt to get out of that window and would not be here today. She would have died instantly with all of the smoke in that place. God had always been real to me but this day He became more real to me. I was seconds away from death and God blocked it for me.

Even though I didn’t deserve it, I wasn’t living for Him and hadn’t said Yes to Him about anything in so long but yet He spared my life again. I said I was going to share story so there it is. I did everything I could to save them. Now I’m trying to just make a difference. My passion for saving souls increased after I got through this tragedy. Tomorrow isn’t promised to none of us. Every week I hear of all walks of life at all ages dying. It aches my heart that it’s more of our youth and my peers dying more and more everyday.

Phil and Vic and so many others will not get the chance to experience getting engaged or married or starting a family or the things a lot of us take for granted. Will your soul thank you for entering eternal life after this life or eternal death after this life? It’s possible to have fun and be in the will of God. It’s possible to accept Christ and live a joyful life. It’s possible to have fun and be saved. Please know that. I’ll save that for another time but please please please cherish the life God has blessed you with.

Cherish your health if you’re in good health. If you’re not, please take advantage that you have a choice to change it. Cherish your family. Please don’t take anything for granted. Tonight could be your last night. Let that sink in. What will you do with the life God has blessed you with? What do you not like about your life not that you want to change? Have you accepted Christ as your Lord and savior? Man it’s so much I want to say but I’ll save for another time. 😉 GOD Bless you. 😘

Love, Janae💕

 

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The “D” Bomb

Hey beautiful souls!

Ugh forgive me again!! The saying is true that relationships, not only marriages, involves a lot of forgiveness!! Please forgive me!! I know it’s been a while and boy has a lot happened! Hmmm “lot” may be an understatement after I share with you the changes that have been made. So I’m currently going through what I thought would have never been an option. The “D” bomb is a divorce… I’ve been wondering how do I share this shattering part of my life to the world for about a week now.

By the looks of my Facebook, I’m sure nobody could tell that I’ve been really going through it. I’ve had some days where I’ve kept it all together and been in prayer and I’ve had my days where I’ve been screamcrying. Yes screamcrying and feeling like my insides have been set on fire. He left me a month ago now and hasn’t said a word to me for the last week. It’s been really really really hard. Now if you remember some blogs back I shared that he didn’t want me to work. He wanted to take care of the finances and be the man blah blah blah.

Well how about he left me with two months of rent to come up with on my own and a dte bill that’s in his name so I can’t even request assistance for it and HE KNOWS I didn’t have any money or anything. Talk about feeling set up. Yes, I feel set up. I feel like he planned to leave long before he left. I feel used, neglected, abandoned, played, cheated on,  manipulated, controlled, deceived, abused and the list goes on. Only God knows how this last month have been for me.

 

 

I don’t even know how to tell my little girl about all of this. I don’t want her to blame herself or think he left because of something she did. I’ve felt like I’ve called her. Though I’ve tried everything to make it work with him. At first it felt like a nightmare that I just couldn’t seem to wake up from but everyday I’m home by myself is a reality that this is all really happening.

He took the car, has gotten paid every week and haven’t cared not once whether, not only me, but me or my daughter have eaten or if we needed anything or nothing. Granted, she’s been staying with family here and there and doesn’t know that he’s gone for good; he haven’t known that she’s been gone. I would have never thought a divorce would be on my record. It feels like a felony. Like if it was just a separation, it’ll probably feel like a misdemeanor. But going through a divorce on the other hand is a different story.

I’ve applied to jobs and actually had an interview yesterday so that’s some good news!! Also I’ve had a circle of some great people lifting me up in prayer through all of this. I don’t know what’s lies ahead but I do know me and my princess are in God’s hands. I do know the cycle of starting over will be broken in Jesus name and my girl and I will not have to start over. I do know that God will supply every one of or needs and that this all will turn for a testimony. Please pray for me as I continue to pray for you all!! God Bless!!

Love, Janae💕

 

 

 

 

 

Godly Parenting

“Mommy, I had just had a nightmare!!”, my daughter yelled from her room late last night.

“Quote Psalm 23”, Marcus told her when she came in room.

“The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.”

He finished it with her and she went back to her room and fell right back asleep. I smiled and thanked God in that moment for the privilege and honor of training up one of HIS children. (God’s children by the way. Our children belong to HIM just like everything else does.) I’m also thankful for a husband who is patient and care for her soul enough to teach her scripture. (He taught her this particular scripture) The beauty of knowing scripture and having a relationship with JESUS is essential to our lives. I’m so glad that anytime she is afraid, she knows that GOD is with her.

Everyday when I’m dropping her off to school, I ask, “Who are you representing today?” With a smile, she always responds, “I’m representing God!” or “I’m representing JESUS!”. It is SO IMPORTANT that we train up our children in the way they should go. (Proverbs 22:6) This is one of the biggest reasons we’ve decided to home-school her beginning next year. I believe it’s more to her education than what school teaches, especially now.

I want her ready to take on the world and the enemy with the full armor of GOD on daily. I need her to know the importance of knowing scripture and the power that’s in the word of GOD. I want her to know her calling and her purpose in this life. I need her to know this world is not our final destination. I need her to know how to fight the enemy with the word of GOD. Last week, I went to a phenomenal online conference titled “The Ministry of Homemaking”. One of the sessions were on teaching our children scripture memorization and how to pray. I must say that session was one of my favorites!

Are we teaching our children to stay rapture ready? Are we teaching them how imperative it is to know and have a relationship with Jesus? Are we teaching our children that no weapon formed against them shall prosper and that they can do ALL THINGS through Christ that strengthens them? I’m so determined to teach my children that greater is HE in us than he that is in the world. I’m determined to be her example of what a godly woman and what a woman living a life pleasing to God really looks like.

No age is to early to start teaching kids scripture. No age is to early to let our kids know that GOD loves them way more than we ever can. No age is to early to teach our children the importance of praying, studying and reading the bible and having a relationship with HIM. Words can’t explain how excited we are to begin homeschooling her next year (and the rest of our children when GOD bless us with them). What a privilege and honor it is to lead our children to Christ.

So parents, moms and dads, I encourage you to be the leader. Kids only do what mommy and daddy do. Don’t let t.v, school and the music industry raise your children. Be involved in your kids life. Life  is to short and our kids grow up fast right before our eyes. Cherish the moments you have with your children and take on the job of raising your kids the way our Heavenly Father has called us to do. Parenting is a ministry in itself if you do it right. I’ll say it again, we are not perfect but trust me, our daily goal is to be a doer and not only a hearer of God’s Word. All of life’s answers are found in God’s Word. Yes, even parenting God’s way. Remember HIS way is ALWAYS THE BEST WAY.

Click link below to get a free copy of The Lord’s Prayer Student Handbook and follow Luke and Trisha blog for more resources and tips on raising godly children.

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Your sister in Christ, Janae

ALL HALLOWS EVE

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Wonderful people of the world! Today is ALL HALLOWS EVE also known as ALL SOULS DAY, better known today as HALLOWEEN!  If you are like most people, you or your children are dressed up and ready to patrol the streets in search of candy. But do you really understand what it is that you are celebrating? Most people dont. So, below I have included an excerpt from an article taken from this link: http://www.history.com/topics/halloween/history-of-halloween .. 

Some of you may not want to read this now and will check it out later. Others may actually take the time to read this now, while some may ignore the passage all together. Whatever the case may be, please scroll down to read my closing remarks….

“Halloween’s origins date back to the ancient Celtic festival of Samhain (pronounced sow-in). The Celts, who lived 2,000 years ago in the area that is now Ireland, the United Kingdom and northern France, celebrated their new year on November 1. This day marked the end of summer and the harvest and the beginning of the dark, cold winter, a time of year that was often associated with human death. Celts believed that on the night before the new year, the boundary between the worlds of the living and the dead became blurred. On the night of October 31 they celebrated Samhain, when it was believed that the ghosts of the dead returned to earth. In addition to causing trouble and damaging crops, Celts thought that the presence of the otherworldly spirits made it easier for the Druids, or Celtic priests, to make predictions about the future. For a people entirely dependent on the volatile natural world, these prophecies were an important source of comfort and direction during the long, dark winter.

To commemorate the event, Druids built huge sacred bonfires, where the people gathered to burn crops and animals as sacrifices to the Celtic deities. During the celebration, the Celts wore costumes, typically consisting of animal heads and skins, and attempted to tell each other’s fortunes. When the celebration was over, they re-lit their hearth fires, which they had extinguished earlier that evening, from the sacred bonfire to help protect them during the coming winter.

By 43 A.D., the Roman Empire had conquered the majority of Celtic territory. In the course of the four hundred years that they ruled the Celtic lands, two festivals of Roman origin were combined with the traditional Celtic celebration of Samhain. The first was Feralia, a day in late October when the Romans traditionally commemorated the passing of the dead. The second was a day to honor Pomona, the Roman goddess of fruit and trees. The symbol of Pomona is the apple and the incorporation of this celebration into Samhain probably explains the tradition of “bobbing” for apples that is practiced today on Halloween.

On May 13, 609 A.D., Pope Boniface IV dedicated the Pantheon in Rome in honor of all Christian martyrs, and the Catholic feast of All Martyrs Day was established in the Western church. Pope Gregory III (731–741) later expanded the festival to include all saints as well as all martyrs, and moved the observance from May 13 to November 1. By the 9th century the influence of Christianity had spread into Celtic lands, where it gradually blended with and supplanted the older Celtic rites. In 1000 A.D., the church would make November 2 All Souls’ Day, a day to honor the dead. It is widely believed today that the church was attempting to replace the Celtic festival of the dead with a related, but church-sanctioned holiday. All Souls Day was celebrated similarly to Samhain, with big bonfires, parades, and dressing up in costumes as saints, angels and devils. The All Saints Day celebration was also called All-hallows or All-hallowmas (from Middle English Alholowmesse meaning All Saints’ Day) and the night before it, the traditional night of Samhain in the Celtic religion, began to be called All-hallows Eve and, eventually, Halloween. “

Basically this quote unquote holiday was created to give honor to death, worship risen spirits, give praise to other idols. The last time I checked, the only death we give honor to was the death of Jesus, we worship him as the risen savior, and we give praises unto His name. Please don’t be blinded by the costumes and candy. All of that is a distraction to keep you from worshiping the only spirit that has true power. The HOLY SPIRIT. Ask yourself, do you really want you or your kids celebrating a holiday that gives so much importance to evil spirits?

I’m just saying family, do your research before you get upset or pass judgement because trust me I’m not. Hoses 4:6 says “my people are destroyed from lack of knowledge.” So all I am trying to do is shed some knowledge. But just know that it’s all love.

Be Blessed and be safe. Until next time….

Royal Queen, Janae

Im Still Here :)

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Hey ladies and gents!! 💜

I pray your week has been great thus far!!  My week has been AMAZING thus far!! As some may know, if we are friends on Facebook, yesterday was the start of a pretty awesome “Ministry of Homemaking” ONLINE Conference!! Mrs Jami Balmet of Young Wives Guide outdid herself!! (Her website is http://youngwifesguide.com/ ) It has been truly a blessing to me and so many others so far! Tomorrow is the last day and I’m sad. It feels like it got here so slow but is ending so quickly! (Sad face)

If learning how to manage your home, cleaning and organizing, planning and priorities, budget and financial resources, and prayer and bible reading tips interest you, click this link to receive more info!! http://homemakingministries.com/homemaking-ministries-online-conference-2015/ The topics that are covered and the Christ centered women Mrs Jami selected to host each session are amazing!! (I did mention it’s been AMAZING right??)

For some reason, people get confuse and go way to deep as to what a homemaker is. Let me share a simple definition with you as to what a homemaker really is! A homemaker is simply a person who manages a home. Nothing more, nothing less. So I can bet you are a homemaker, like myself, who manages a home. Yes or no? I think a lot of people looked at this conference and felt it was only geared to mommies or wives but in reality it was for ALL women who are homemakers!! (Smiles) 

I love the space Jami has at the bottom of the Homemakers Conference website. There is a “Frequently Asked Questions & Answers” section added. She gives clarity to every possible question a person can have about this conference. Check this one out! This one was my favorite!

.I’m not married and/or I don’t have kids. Does this conference still apply to me?

A.YES! Being married or having kids doesn’t make you a homemaker. All women have that special ability to set the tone and to bring glory to God from within their homes – whether they are single or married and whether they have 0 kids or 3 or 11! Join us as we cover all aspects of homemaking (and Biblical womanhood)!

So that’s ALL WOMEN if you ask me. (Who asked me though-smile) I would like to encourage you to purchase conference if you can asap!! I am really not sure if tomorrow is the last day to purchase event but I DO know tomorrow IS the last day of the conference. I will share on the next Blog (which will be this Friday) as to whether conference will still be available to purchase after tomorrow. Let me also share this with you. Once you purchase conference, say you are busy with work or school and just don’t have the time to listen to the sessions right now? Well, here is Mrs Jami Balmet answer to that!!

Question: How long will I have access to the sessions?

A.Forever! We want you to have complete access to this conference – to watch again and again if you want. The sessions will remain on the website for the foreseeable future and if at some point we have to remove them, you will get the chance to save them onto your computer to keep forever.

HOW AWESOME IS THAT!! To be able to download the sessions to whatever device of your choice and go back and listen to them when you have the time!! (I already have been downloading) Not to mention, the bonuses that come with the purchase of the conference! They are so phenomenal and very helpful!! A complete notebook of notes from each session and a HOME MANAGEMENT BINDER!!! So excited to start using mine!!! For me, this conference was right on time. I had been talking to my hubby about my desire to be a better godly woman, wife, mom and servant for some time now.  

What an incredible blessing it is to please and glorify God all while pleasing and making my family happy and creating a safe haven for them to come back home to everyday. I have learned so much in just the last two days and I am so excited to start implementing what I’ve learned moving forward and to share it all with you within the next few weeks. I will do a 3 Part on “My take from MHC” (Ministry of Homemakers Conference) so stay tuned! May GOD pour His rich blessings, peace and favor in you and your family’s lives! Enjoy the rest of your week and God Bless you and your family!! 💜

💞 Your sister in Christ, Janae💞